I am tired literally but not to the point where I quit. Halloween was a walkathon out of this world. It is amazing how you do not realize how far you have walked when you are having fun. It was my baby's first official Halloween. He was so scared out of his wits. He did not trust anything...not the people in costumes (especially the scary ones)...not the pets...not even peanut butter crackers.

Today I walked about 2 miles maybe a little over. From my house to my dad's. I am thinking about walking back so I can get some more exercise. I fell short a little and missed two days. I am back caught up...Saturday is my make-up day.

It is hard to stay on track, but I am getting there.

It Hurts!

It hurts...It hurts so bad. I have been doing well but I am not even going to acknowledge it. I am tired. I am sore and it seems like it will never end. Soaking time when I get home for sure.

Hard To Break

Habit not broken
Weight not lost
Dissatisfaction about me
I think it is moreso inner sadness than outer
Time to start over...AGAIN
I need something...
Something to keep me motivated
Something that makes me want to work out everyday or other day
Consistently at least...
Just don't know what that is...
I tell you when I find out what that is

Only thing consistent is the Turkey Trot. Go figure.

Man....Pathetic

I looked over this blog and got upset a little bit. It seems that my father is right when it comes down to working out and staying consistent. It has been very hard to stay focused on staying healthy and staying in shape. I think it comes down to a weight thing with me or it used to. I thought that if I was not the ideal that I was not healthy...so far from wrong. I am out of that mindset now. I set a goal to lose 40 lbs by my birthday...but what I really mean is to be more toned and tightened by my birthday. As long as I reach that I am fine. I am still planning on doing the Turkey Trot like every year. I cannot believe that I have been doing it for the past three; whether my workout was consistent or not. I think that is totally ironic. Anyway I started over once more...trying so hard to break this bad habit I have of starting over.

Remember it takes 21 days (3 weeks) to break a bad habit. I am on week two.